Friday, October 2, 2009

Thorns and Petals








Very True....Read on.

By Lysa TerKeurst

The seed that fell among thorns stands for those who hear, but as they go on their way they are choked by life's worries, riches and pleasures, and they do not mature.
Luke 8:14

My life has not been a bed of roses.

What an odd statement. It is supposed to mean that I haven't lived a life without snags and hurt. However, think of an actual bed of roses. Doesn't it have both thorns and flowers?

Let me say, if I was reading this devotion and I saw it was going to be about roses, I might be tempted to click "delete" while rolling my eyes and thinking the last thing the world needs is another cutesy Christian analogy. But stick with me here. There is something significant to be discovered about roses and thorns.

My aunt has grown roses for years. When I was in middle school and my family was falling apart, I went to live with my aunt for almost a year. I remember her telling me not to run through her rose garden. After all, she had what seemed like hundreds of other acres that unfolded in wide open fields. I could run there.

But I didn't want to.

I only wanted to run through the rose garden. I wanted to spread my arms wide open and run between the rows brushing my fingertips across all the velvety blooms. I wanted some of the blooms to burst and shower petals all around. Then I could gather the petals and spread them along my path.

As if I could carve a new place in this world lined with beauty and void of adult words like divorce, rejection, and hate ... I wanted my world to be soft, pink, and lovely. So, I took a running start with my arms outstretched only to be shocked with searing pain within the first few steps.

Thorns. Big, mean, vicious thorns. Thorns that ripped my flesh and opened up the flood of tears I'd been so determined to hold back. Suddenly, I hated that bush. I wanted to chop it down and beat it into the ground. But I couldn't do it. I couldn't bring myself to destroy something that produced such beauty.

I stood back from the source of my pain and wondered should I call it a bush of thorns or a bush of flowers. Really, it could go either way.

Suddenly I wasn't just staring at a bush. I was staring at my life. My life. Such a bed of roses. Would I see the hurt or would I see the beauty?

Luke 8:14 says, "The seed that fell among thorns stands for those who hear, but as they go on their way they are choked by life's worries, riches and pleasures, and they do not mature." The seed being referred to here is the Word of God. Isn't it interesting that people who are choked by life's circumstances and never mature are referred to as having thorns in the soil of their soul? Yes, life sometimes hands us thorns but we have the choice to park our mind on the thorn or on the beauty it can eventually produce in us if only we'll cling tightly to God's Word. For however a person thinks is how they will eventually become.

If we dwell on and think about the negative in life, we will become negative and God's Word will have a hard time taking root in our souls. If, however, we acknowledge the negative but choose instead to look for the good that can come from it, God's Word will take root in our souls and produce a lush crop of beauty.

It all comes down to choice. That day in my aunt's garden, I chose to be aware of the thorns but park my mind on the petals.

And I guess you could say, I've been making that choice every day since.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

beautiful chakras

I'd like to dedicate this post to two special people: Jojo and Ida Mariana. THANK YOU.

There must be a reason why they reappeared into my life. Jojo and I have an exquisite relationship. I often joke with her about her voice irony. High-pitched yet soothing. "It must be the zen in you" I'd tell her. I was right. Her aura is beautiful. And everything she does for a friend is pure zen.

Another beautiful soul is Ida. We met recently, thanks to Miss Universe Malaysia. She must have been a Shamman in her previous life, but just her sheer presence heals. We finished rehearsals earlier than normal today (yay!) - so we sneaked into her friend's performance at the theatre downstairs and it was there where I enjoyed the simplicity of pure love. Charitable hearts and the innocence of children, kindness and pure thoughts.

Healing can only take place if you learn to forgive yourself first. New age practioners and even the bible tells us this.

I did an exercise to reconnect with myself. My life. To understand. It was a painful discovery, but when I understood the pattern, it made letting go easier. The next step was to forgive myself first -or else "forgiving others can never take place."

It took me 3 attempts before PH was convinced.

I was told that you can't own a person, and neither can he or she. Once you understand this; it makes letting go so much easier.

Joyfully surrending myself for instant happiness!

;)

Let's play lanterns now!



i love you darling(s)

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

This cheered me up today

When You Feel

by Caramel Bliss

When you feel you're alone in a bad world.
When all you once had is gone. 
Remember that life has taught us. 
That the darkest night precedes the dawn. 

When you feel you are out of hope. 
Remember that God is there. 
Keep your faith strong. 
Soon, he will answer your prayers. 

When you feel you have no friend left. 
And only enemies are near.
Worry not, my love.
For I'll always be here for you, dear.

Fear not, you are safe in my arms. 
You will always find a home in my heart. 
And i shall forever be your loyal one. 
'Till death do us part.

*My heart is ever at your service. ~William Shakespeare 

Lotus Confirmed for 2010 as FIA pushes for 14 teams


Tony Fernandes, CEO of AirAsia.Formula One World Championship, Rd 2, Malaysian Grand Prix, Race Day, Sepang, Malaysia, Sunday, 5 April 2009  Mike Gascoyne (GBR). Formula One World Championship, Rd 3, Chinese Grand Prix, Preparations, Shanghai, China, Thursday, 16 April 2009FIA flag on the grid. Formula One World Championship, Rd 4, Bahrain Grand Prix, Race Day, Bahrain International Circuit, Sakhir, Bahrain, Sunday, 26 April 2009

Following an intensive selection and due diligence process, the FIA has awarded the 13th entry in the 2010 FIA Formula One World Championship to the new Lotus team.

The FIA also received an impressive application from the BMW Sauber team. As such, it has awarded BMW Sauber the '14th place' in the championship meaning that it will be entitled to fill any vacancy that arises on the 2010 grid. 

In addition, the FIA believes that a good case can be made for expanding the grid to 14 teams. The FIA will be consulting urgently with the existing teams regarding the introduction of an appropriate rule change to expand the grid to 28 cars in time for the first Grand Prix in 2010.

Detailed below is information about the new team that has been confirmed to compete in the championship from next year, joining fellow newcomers Manor Grand Prix, Team US and Campos Meta.

Company Name: 1Malaysia F1 Team Sdn Bhd
Team Name: Lotus F1 Team
Country: Malaysia
Team Principal: Tony Fernandes

A partnership between the Malaysian Government and a consortium of Malaysian entrepreneurs, 1Malaysia F1 Team returns the Lotus name as a constructor to Formula One for the first time since 1994. The team will initially be based at the RTN facility in Norfolk, UK, some 10 miles from the Lotus Cars factory. A 50,000 square foot fully equipped facility, RTN was built by Toyota for its initial Formula One programme and then used by Bentley for its successful Le Mans programme.

The team’s future design, R&D, manufacturing and technical centre will be purpose built at Malaysia’s Sepang International Circuit.

Team Principal Tony Fernandes is the founder and CEO of the Malaysian-based Tune Group, owner of the Air Asia airline. The team’s Technical Director Mike Gascoyne has over 20 years of experience in Formula One having previously performed the same role for the Force India, Toyota, Renault and Jordan Formula One teams. 

As part of its application to compete in the 2010 FIA Formula One World Championship, the team has agreed an engine supply deal with Cosworth and a wide variety of technical partnerships including Xtrac and FondTech.

The team is understood to already have a shortlist of six drivers, including both Malaysian and international names, and an announcement confirming their line-up is expected in late October.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Stackables....









Aren't these stackable rings beautiful? 

Today, a good friend of mine and I decided to have a girly day out together since we were both amazingly free! Meant to be a day of "feeling good inside out", we started out with a facial followed by light lunch. Skipped gym because we yakked too much over lunch (topic: in laws, men and the Indonesia vs Malaysia spat) and ended up at a mall in the city ordering stackable rings for Raya. This was followed by an impromtu singing session and a hearty 'buka puasa' meal with the boyboy and finally, a quiet ride home after.

Stackable rings. It is so pretty when you find the right combo. I used to stack up my wedding ring and engagement ring. Or my Uni rings I bought when I had my first paycheck. Now, the left hand carries my sentimental Bvglari ring that has so many scratches on it, but I wear it with love. 

So today, I marked a new era to my new slate of living by getting stackables. After much deliberation, I found the right combo and paid the deposit for it to be resized. ( Because of my large knuckles, I need to resize one a  size smaller , and the other 2 rings are bigger?)

I made sure that the rings, if used separately would still look pretty and handy.
But put them together -- outstandingly DaPhNe.

Last Friday at prayer meet, the speaker told us that we should always count our small blessings and to continue being grateful. Never be proud or conceit with the rezeki we receive. 

I have started to comply by these simple rules.

Stackable rings. They might be tiny if worn alone, but put it together, what an amazing affect it creates.

And just like our small blessings in life, if we put it all together...when we see the bigger picture, it is actually quite a spectacular sight for many to see, ponder and appreciate.

I wish to Thank our Maker for the roof that shelters my daughter, sister and I. The food we eat. The friends and family love we are embraced and protected by.

Praise you.



 


Friday, September 11, 2009

Ridiculous laughing




Someone  very close to me said I had lost my sense of humor. I was hurt naturally. Especially since it came from a friend who is very dear to me. He has said some rather painful remarks of late, so I finally got the courage to point it out and to come clean with how I felt.

His reply , " I can't joke with you anymore. You have no more sense of humor"

 I asked him to put himself in my shoes. He said he did.
I told him I guess we are built differently.

That's the test of friendship I guess. Understanding each other's strengths and weaknesses. And embracing the flaws of one another. 

Ever since the recent hoorah surrounding my private life, I have been extra careful with my words, actions and thoughts.  I live by, "do unto others, what you want to be done upon you".


When asked for a comment, I had none to offer. Only because, as I always say, there is always two sides of the coin. In this case, there are three. 
I will let God lay the path of the journey I am to walk on. Faith is all I have left.

So going back to what that friend of mine said, I don't think I have lost my sense of humor. I think I am more sensitive to remarks  made, only because of my recent predicament. 
Rediscovering myself through the ways of our Maker has made me evidently a lot more quieter. Sombre. Intuitive.
I guess I am no longer the fun Daphne everyone remembers.
So yea...I guess I am a bore.

Just like how I have found my true friends during these times of uncertainty, I know I might have to let go of those who can't understand the new me. Or else we will just continue to hurt each other. And I don't want that. Not anymore.

I still laugh. I just laugh at positive jokes. Of beautiful memories. Like the sight of Bel trying to carry the brand new Fabric softner around the house. She is so adorable.

I can't laugh to lewd jokes. Or gossipy news. I don't want to laugh at other people's misfortunes. I don't find happiness talking bad about others. I don't find joy in painful remarks. 

Life is too short. I have made my share of mistakes in the past. But it is never too late to be a better person.



Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Always look at the bright side of life...


September 9, 2009

Seeing the Ordinary as Extraordinary
          By Os Hillman

Whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God
1 Corinthians 10:31


Our Lord never saw the mundane activities as ordinary. Whether He healed the sick or sat around the fire with the disciples, He did not see one activity as spiritual and the other non-spiritual. Life was lived as a holy service to His Heavenly Father.

Many times we fall prey to a spiritual hierarchy mentality. We believe certain activity is more blessed by God because it is done under a spiritual guise. We conduct our Christian meetings and conclude one is blessed by God based on attendance. We work to give money to ministry when we fail to recognize the very work we do is ministry.

God's glory can be expressed in the most common task. Whether washing the dishes or changing diapers or driving to the grocery store. When we begin to assign spiritual value to activities we begin to give greater importance to those activities we deem spiritually higher in the hierarchy. 
Philip was in the midst of a major crusade when the Holy Spirit abruptly instructed him to stop and go to a desert road.

"Philip went down to a city in Samaria and proclaimed the Christ there. When the crowds heard Philip and saw the miraculous signs he did, they all paid close attention to what he said."

"Now an angel of the Lord said to Philip, 'Go south to the road-the desert road-that goes down from Jerusalem to Gaza.' So he started out, and on his way he met an Ethiopian eunuch, an important official in charge of all the treasury of Candace, queen of the Ethiopians. This man had gone to Jerusalem to worship, and on his way home was sitting in his chariot reading the book of Isaiah the prophet. The Spirit told Philip, 'Go to that chariot and stay near it'" (Acts 8:26-29). We see in this story that neither activity was more important than the other. Philip's job was to live in communion with the Holy Spirit and be obedient to His promptings.

Today, view every activity you do with an attitude of worship and communion with Jesus.